Wishful Wednesday

Another Wishful Wednesday takes me deep inside my brain, searching for things I would like to see happen. Less stress sounds like a good one.

I'm also wishful for a car, a solid gold toilet seat, and a lifetime supply of Casi Cielo coffee.

My last selfish wish would probably be to achieve marginal fame at some point in my life. I certainly don't want to be a one-name superstar, or someone who can't show their face in public without starting a mob. However, I saw this today on twitter and thought it was one of the coolest things I'd ever seen:

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See, what Rainn Wilson is doing here is using his fame to help an awesome cause. I really admire that. I think it's awesome.

I constantly feel like I'm running out of things to say. This feeling isn't exclusive to my blog. In school, work, and life, I feel like I'm constantly running out of things to do, places to go, things to achieve.

I really don't know what I'm supposed to be doing any more. Everything feels like a repetition. It's so mundane. The worst part is that I know there are ways that my life of school and work could exist without being mundane, but I don't have the means to take advantage of that.

I don't feel productive very often. Not really ever. Who am I helping? Not even myself.

I'd love to fast forward three years and three months. I'd love to be out of school, taking what I've learned and applying it to the real world and to life.

I'm sick of only operating in terms of principles. By this I mean that nothing seems real. I'm not trying to be an existentialist or anything, but I feel like my time could be better spent.

For now I guess I'll just rely on my studies, and take comfort in the knowledge that I'm gaining. If there is one constant, it's that I'm always learning something. It may not be something valuable in the long run, but I am learning. I can at least take solace in that. I'll try to focus on that more, especially as my life darkens ever so slightly in the coming months. There are always glimmers of good in my life. Always another chocolate chip in the cookie when you least expect it. I'll try to keep those in mind, too. It's difficult to look forward to what only occurs unexpectedly.

Wow. I don't know how that all came out, or why it was so vague.

On that note, I'm out like disco.

Truly,

David